Seriously, Rusty and I talked last night that we are simply paralyzed by this wait. We are constantly saying "after we get the referral...". The scariest part is that after we get the referral we simply move into another waiting period (waiting for a court date). I can't even think about that. They tell me only about 50% of the court dates are successful on the first try. Can't think about that either (la la la la I can't hear that!!). Don't even let me see your blog if you lost a referral in any way, shape, or form--I jump off that site as fast as my finger can hit the X button! I also refuse to read any blogs that have timelines that don't agree with my "ideal", or what I have deemed reasonable and normal. I could be losing my mind, unsure at this point. It's ok though because I'm in bed where it's safe.
We got an email from the agency today "warning" us that they will be calling in the next 2 days for a regular monthly update. I guess they are familiar with #1 Moms (or probably anywhere in the top 10) who see the caller ID and flip out instantly thinking it is their referral and they have simply called to check in. They said they would answer any questions we have.
WHERE IS MY SON?
That's it. Just one question.
The question is, can I say that much without crying?
Or, as my friend suggested, just let Rus answer and listen in on the other phone so there is just a low sobbing in the background.
Really, is it just me or is 6 weeks too long to be #1 on the waitlist?
Isn't 12.5 months of longing for a baby boy a little much?
147 Million orphans and not one to bring home to our family?
The room is ready, the crib is empty and just longing to be spit up in :).
The sisters are pumped, prayerful and ready to pounce!
Dad is ready for his little buddy and Mom is ready for bottles and diapers, singing and rocking!
All we need is our little Evan boy.
Please Lord, let today be the day we see his face.
Oh Lord, rescue him because You delight in him, take hold of him and draw him out!