Rusty called AGCI yesterday and finally got in touch with one of the case workers. She really didn't have any new information for us, but it feels better just to stay in touch. Basically she told us a little more about the transition home (Hannah's Hope). This is where all the AGCI children stay until their families come to pick them up. This home houses 60 children and cannot take any more on until the ones that are there go home with their forever families. There was a group of families that traveled on Christmas day, I don't know how many? And another group due to travel on January 8. So there is some movement in the works, but no one is able to tell us if our baby is at HH waiting on medical testing...etc? or still in a government run orphanage waiting to come to HH? I have this loop of Tom Petty's song running constantly in my head "the waaaiting is the hardest part..." Not exactly spiritual, but true!
Night before last I was up until 3am working on the blog, reading others blogs, and watching "gotcha day" videos. Last night I was in bed at 7:30pm because I was DONE. What a roller coaster. I must admit it is nearly identical to the last weeks of all 3 of my pregnancies. I get very anxious at the end. With Carley I was up at 3am taking baths because I couldn't sleep. I remember laying there in misery saying "how much longer Lord?" With all 3 I stood over their empty cribs asking the same question. Once again, here I am, with an empty crib and an aching heart. The only good news is... I'm skinny!! ha ha. The thing that makes this one so much harder is that there is no guarantee. With my pregnancies I knew my Dr. wouldn't let me go over the 40 week mark, he would induce. With this "paper pregnancy" there are no guarantees, no end in sight. Not to mention the fact that it has already been more than a year since we filled out our first application and I was ready that very day for my sweet baby! So, in my estimation, I am VERY much OVERDUE! It is my uncomfortable, frustrating, anxiety producing, all-consuming desire.
For now I will stand on this:
The Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore. Psalm 121:8
That goes for Evan in Ethiopia and us here too!
Don't we serve an awesome God who can keep up with everything?!